Waiting for the sun to set, and night rise, dats when i will go out, i've not plan where to go yet tonight, no mood, seriously, cant stop thinkning about wad i've done, so now, while waiting the night to come, let me post about how i feel right now

feeling down right now, message my speacial one yesterday, and she keep replying the same thing, i dunno how many times should i say dat i dun like that girl, i only olike u, guess wad? she said, i lied, aaarrrggghh, its started as a joke, a small joke, my friend did to me, and it became a really big issue, haiya, i dunno wad to do sey, im juz hoping dat monday will be like a nnormal day, i really miss those days when she, first talk to me about rokok, i ask her if she have, she said she only had one, and she said she want to stengah wif me, den after school walk to bus stop, smoking n talking, while at the bus stop, she ask for my number, den at night she msg, 'hey, tmrw as usual okay? after school, u got rkk? if dun have share with me k?' dat kind of msg, lasted for a few days, till i dissapoint her about the camp, dats the first time i think i made her sad, den when time pass by, we getting closer and closer, msg each other for awhile, getting noe each other life, den dats where, i began to fall for her, so i wrote a song about her, firstly the song i wrote, is like doesnt seem to have the meaning for her, cause nothing had happen to us at dat time, but now, if u listen it, all of the lyrics, had to do with her, all of it, i hope if she listen to it now, she will get the meaning of it, after the song, dats when i told her dat i ------- u noe, i noe, other people dunno, and everything goes really well, i enjoy spending time with her, but now, i dunno if we are going to be as close as before, she doesnt believe me anymore, i dun blame her for dat, cause i blame one of my friend, he's is the one who start this mess, i juz didnt expect this thing would happen, cause she never really told me about her feelings towards me, i thought dat she didnt really get that upset, and called me a liar, girl, listen to me k? if i lie to u, i only lie to make u feel better, okay? other than dat i wont lie, and most important thing, i dun like dat girl, u saw in my screensaver, she's already have her own guy, and she said to me to move on, well, i guess you still dun believe me dont u? is there anyway or anything i can do for u to trust me back? if theres, please tell me, i'll do anything, u noe i cant go to school without talking to u, i told u before, i'll tell u again, ur my everything rite now, so please, juz once, give me another try will u? how i wish i could tell u this in person, its my fault, i've learn my lesson, i swear i never do it again, i promise, i cant keep going on like this seriously, 143

Erul No Shame screamed @ 9:09 PM